today i learnt alot of things. my brother and i had this long deep talk and i realised that we, at james ruse, live in our perfect little bubble. i realised that despite all the shit going on right now, there are people who have it 100000x worse.
Lets step back for a second and take a look at how fortunate we are. Almost all of us can afford tutor, a luxury, when hundreds of other kids struggle to even attend highschool. I know these kids dont relate to us, but when we think life is hard, when feelings are hurt, tears are running, hearts are breaking, we should all step back and look at all those kids who wished they could even attend a school to experience those feelings. It puts the mediocre drama that we have in perspective aye?
i guess what i'm saying, is that yes, i know the drama we have seems extremely important, and that its everything going on in our lives, but its such a minute part of life, that in a couple of years it will seem like a blip in our high school life. i know it hurts, i can feel pain as well, but please, lets grow from these experiences that shape our life right now, and learn from the mistakes we made, and make sure it doesnt happen again.
when i was 10, i used to be like :O OHMYGOD 16 IS SO OLD. i used to think that when you were 16, you were all mature and grownup. but somehow, i still feel like the little kid, who used to look up at the older children wearing braces and thinking about how cool braces was and how pretty they made someone look. LOLOLLL ==. But now I am 16. I've had enough experiences in these last couple of weeks, to know what was done wrong and what was done right. i am the mature and grownup person, i thought 16 year olds were, so lets start acting like that shall we?
Everyone has people they trust, everyone has people they listen to, everyone has people to tell things too. But in the end, we're the same. We all gossip/bitch/whatever you want to call it, but we all do it. as much as you like to believe it, no one keeps secrets. It always gets told to one person who tells someone else, who tells some one else. It just depends on who it stops at. We are all 2 faced, in some way or another. So nobody is perfect, and nobody should be judged for not being perfect.
And lastly, over time, i guess people change. who you were a year ago, may be different to who you are now. You grow as a person, and the people you grow with, help shape who you become. As with all of us, we've seen how our friendship circles have changed over the years, but that doesnt mean we arent friends with those who we dont hang with so much anymore. Some friendships may be lost temporarily, while some are gained, but what we have with these people, will always exist.
I dont see it as a mistake or a waste a time... just .. a chapter in my life that has now finally ended.
okayyy rant done, its 12:07, congratulations if you read all that. byeeeeeeeeee